I can’t help it. I somewhat still like you and that’s the problem..no good no good

I can’t sleep because I was just thinking about what my life would be like if i’d taken a different path. I may have been more satisfied with my life — or I would’ve been delusional and unaware of everything. Life is sorta funny. I mean the smallest decision is fairly insignificant until you break it down into millions of what-if scenarios. Of course that’s not what life’s all about but still. I can’t help but wonder what my life would be like if I made the exact opposite decision over everything in my life from the start. I mean would I still end up being the same person? I mean sure. I’d still be ME. But in the grand scheme of things…would I be further in my education? Would I have a better grasp of life? Would I surround myself with different people? Would I be a better me? Or would I be worse off? The unknown is an unsettling thing. Its quite annoying but I suppose if we didn’t have mystery in life..it wouldn’t be much of a life..